Monthly Archives: January 2008

If this guy is right, I guess it’s time for me to sharpen my resume’ and go apply for a position at the local library (which by the way, doesn’t sound all that bad).

Introverts Need Not Apply
(for church leadership)

Such leadership is extremely important, especially given the instantaneous forms of communications available to denominational and global religious communities. A leader who is an introvert will have a difficult time engaging with the challenges, conflicts, needs and demands of his or her constituencies. An extrovert can generate engagement and enthusiasm for a common goal or mission. A narcissist will provide lots of support and engagement with those who agree with him or her but will usually close the door on those they disagree with. As the “family systems” researcher Peter Steinke so often reminds us, narcissists are usually found in the professions of musicians, actors and clergy and at times a mixture of some or all.”

I think he is way off. He makes sweeping generalizations. He stereotypes to the point of nausea. He suggests that introverts are more narcissistic than extroverts- which is ridiculous. He underestimates the beauty of a Christ-centered community celebrating one another’s strengths while compensating for each others weaknesses.  And overall, he puts too much emphasis on the person verses the Holy Spirit working through the person.

But who am I to say….
I am just a recovering narcissist who so happens to be an introverted musical “clergyman”.

laky

What drives laziness? -a kind of ongoing lack of motivation. I read somewhere that laziness is the habit of quiting before you get tired. I don’t know about that, but it makes me wonder about the cause of laziness. I have asked some friends about it and most of them said it had to do with selfishness.

I have to say, from time to time I like the thought of being lazy. It has a weird sort of attraction.

I wonder if it isn’t so much laziness that I am attracted to but a deep desire for real rest.

I wonder if laziness grows from missing purpose.

I wonder if laziness grows from loosing hope.

I wonder…

“The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.” M.L. King

I often wonder how I would respond as a man were I not shrouded in excessive comfort and convenience. I have it good… how would I be if I was trapped in the rubble of the twin towers, running for cover in a war torn region, struggling for food to give to my family, dying of aids or cancer, or parenting my children alone.

Am I using comfort and convenience to build a character that will feed me and others when challenge and controversy hit?

heschel“Unless one learns how to relish the taste of Sabbath while still in this world, unless one is initiated in the appreciation of eternal life, one will be unable to enjoy the taste of eternity in the world to come. Sad is the lot of him who arrives inexperienced and when led to heaven has no power to perceive the beauty of the Sabbath” Heschel

Over the years, this thought has deeply affected me. The idea that we could taste eternity now by saturating ourselves in the rhythm of Sabbath living.

A regular gift from heaven rarely opened.

chosenI started reading Ephesians. I read the introduction and was drawn to the scope of the whole letter. Paul’s overall goal for his readers is to help young churches grow up and know what they are to be about. That is good timing for me in light of my current frustrations. After reading the first chapter I was struck by the predestination theme. Oh no. But this time a different thought came to mind about that. Instead of the frozen chosen/elitist mentality, I thought about the commission the Father has given to those He calls. We are chosen not to run away from the world but are chosen to be agents of change to the world. Paul doesn’t seem to make this about some getting a “get out of hell card” while others don’t, but more of a commission to the Church to be men and women who are a part of the Father’s agenda to be bring the world back to Him.

That is an important distinction for me. Not chosen from but chosen for …The world should be better off because we are called, not worse. How is the current (American) Church doing with that? From what I read and see, not very well. Boy, we sure do like to hide up in our plush buildings, safe programs, and spend a lot of time trying to manufacture feel good “worship” services. I am afraid we may have it all a bit out of balance. Heaven forgive us. Teacher, teach us again what it means to be your disciples.

the nano

I would buy this car in a minute.
Shoot, for $2500 even I could afford this car.
I love you Nano.
Put me on the list

Someone searched for ‘RELUCTANT NARCISSIST DANIEL’ and got my blog. I had to smile at that for a couple of reasons. One, I’m vain enough to check my blog stats to find out who’s connecting to this blog. Second, that I’m actually tagged as Daniel the reluctant narcissist. All that is missing is the ‘Ivan’ part.

I have always been a bit unsure about the title of this blog, but it fits me.

I want to learn to shift the rotation of the universe away from me to where it belongs.

But it’s hard.

its easier for people to handout criticism than it is acceptance.

it’s easier to please God than it is to please man.

the prayers of a person right before God goes a long way.

Perfect!